He got it..

umm... huzzah? :(

Just left

I don't know which way to hope this interview goes- We defiantly need the income, but 2 hours is awfully far away..

A job far away..

My fiancé may of found a job! The only problem is that the job is two hours away and he will be gone four days a week, possibly five.. the job doesn't pay that great, but it is a job and we definitely need something. I am not thrilled with the demands. He will only be home a few days a week, and my finding a job gets a bit more complicated since I have to be able to get the boys on and off the bus and have the freedom to stay home if they are sick. Maybe I will start making digital scrapbook kits and selling them, a good kit can go for10.00 and there is an infinite supply once I have it made.. just a thought.
Anyway- his interview is Tuesday- Ill put up an update then..

A little background info

About us and our family-

A little over a year ago my fiancé proposed to me. I always said I was never getting married, but then he came along. We don't have a perfect relationship, but we both agree that breaking up simply isn't an option and keeping our blended family together is our number one priority. We have our fights, and we have highs and lows, but all in all we get along. He has quite a bit of baggage, and is far from perfect, but I can deal with that, because the same can be said about me and just about everyone I know.

I have two sons who live with us and he has a daughter whom he doesn't get to see right now. Our family dynamic works for us. My sons love him dearly and truly see him as a dad (not father, they know the difference despite their young age) We started dating when they were 4 and 2 so as far back as they can remember, he has been there, even accompanying us the few times we visited with their father. My oldest (who is now 7) is thrilled about us getting married and has said that he is so lucky to of been able to pick his dad. My 5 year old insists he isn't my boy, but our boy. So despite our problems, we are happy together.

Our situation-

We lost our jobs about a year ago- he is a fabricator/handyman/electrician and I was a preschool teacher and had to move from where I grew up in suburbia to where he grew up (a very small town literally surrounded by 20 miles of cornfields all directions) in his dad's house where his brother also moved into after his divorce. We finished out the basement to make an apartment. At first we thought that less people would mean less competition in the job hunt, and it does, but there are also less opportunities. So now he is trying to start our own business building three wheeled motorcycles called Trikes. I am also trying to start a business doing graphic design and am going to be going back to school this fall.

Weight loss-

I am overweight, I have been since I was about 10. One of my goals before I get married is to lose weight and reach a healthy BMI- I need to lose at least 100 lbs to get back to my high school weight, but I really ought to lose 150 (OMG thats like a person!) One of the main challenges to that is the living situation- the guys do the grocery shopping and buy man food- greasy greasy man food, if I diddnt know better, I'd swear that the guys think pizza is a food group. My fiancé also loves to cook, and the food he makes is amazing, but defiantly not low fat fare.

I currently weigh 278 and am 5'5 which gives me a BMI of about 46, to get to a healthy BMI I need to weigh between 145 and 120. I never worried too much about my weight before, but its getting to the point where I don't even feel like me anymore. I'm to tired to do much of anything and there is so much I want to do but am afraid of because of my size. I am starting to feel trapped in my body and I have to stop it. I hate having my picture taken because of how I look, and I want pictures of my wedding day, beautiful pictures that I will want to share.

Wedding-

I am trying to plan a wedding that we can afford. He doesn't care much about it and would be perfectly happy going to the courthouse, but I want a simple ceremony, I already have figured out where the ceremony (state park- free) and the reception (his families lake- also free) will be, however thats about as far as I have gotten. My mom has volunteered to make the cake and I am crafting a cake topper out of sculpey (our Simpsonized selves). My future father in law also has a friend who can preform the ceremony. So so far I have spent 20.00 on Wedding stuff. I am going to have to wait on a dress, but since I hope to lose a massive amount of weight before then that works for me.

Well- thats all for now :)